It's been awhile since I've been on here to post, for a number of reasons. My rabbit chewed through my internet cable about a month or two ago, and I haven't replaced it. I've been using the highspeed at work and Matt's place to do what I need to do. Anyway, here's what you've missed.
No, I didn't get the job. I was pretty sure they were going to give it to Carla anyway. Bah. I've been told that a position as senior in my current job will be made available once they hire and train Carla's replacement, we'll see if that happens. This has been going on for months, and they don't have anyone to replace poor Carla yet.
I've been a member of eDiets since August. I got on the scale this morning, and am happy to report that I've lost 11 lbs. so far. Today, I put on a shirt that didn't fit a month ago, and pants that were tight. I like the diet, I don't feel deprived. I'm not hungry, and I get to eat tons of fruit. I've also been taking a pilates class, which I like alot. Things are good in this arena.
I'm getting closer to deciding to go back to school. I had decided that I wanted to become a Physician Assistant (similar to being a nurse practitioner). I'm still planning to meet with an academic counselor at Tri-C to get the ball rolling in the spring. So I was telling Tricia, my choir director, that I might not be around in the spring because of school (and the cost of being in the choir) , and she went on this tirade about how I needed to go into music. That I've got a rare gift, and would be wasting it. So she's going to try and hook me up with a teacher at BW to listen to me and give me a fair assessment of my voice and chances at becoming a successful professional. I have no interest in teaching; if I were to do the music thing, I'd get a degree in performance. Or just plain take lessons if that's what this woman says I need to do. But I'm still not convinced that it's something I really want to do. Yes, it would be really freakin' awesome to be Kate in Avenue Q, or, my dream role, Christine in Phantom. But I'm not a dancer. I'm not that great of an actor (which I know I can take classes for). If I had my way, I'd be a mezzo with the Cleveland Orchestra or Cleveland Opera, singing arias with orchestras. My teachers at Mount always used to try to get me to switch majors; my private voice teacher used to try and get me to be a performance major. But after years of having my hopes and dreams dashed and beaten by my parents, it was something that I shut off of my thoughts to. I worry that music would become work, and it would suck all the love out of it for me. Allen said to me last night, "Life is too short not to do what you love." My reply was "life is too short to be broke". I don't want to be a starving artist. I'd rather pursue my medical career and keep music as my favorite hobby. I was really upset on the phone with Matt about all of this last night, because doing the music thing would mean facing my own self-doubt. And there's also the old feeling of defying my parents. After all the "you'll never make it", "you're not good enough", "we won't help you with college if you do this - we're not paying $60,000 for you to be a waitress."
